exams, no pressure!
Tuesday, May 15, 2007 10:08 AM
As time slips through my fingers, that sense of uncertainty increases. One more day before my exams, and i hardly feel any pressure. But of coz, there is no pressure. No repercussions, no motivation. I took a deep breath and counted the no. of nights i have left, before i vacate and hand back my keys. How scary. Never expected it to come so soon. I have a sudden urge to change my flight. A friend offered for me to go and stay at Birmingham until i feel like going back. But its not like i'm not looking forward to going back. What am i fearing? The unknown? But how can home, Singapore be the unknown?! So its not the unknown. Maybe, the end of SEP= end of holiday= back to reality. Its true that the international students, esp exchange, live 2 lives. And i guess, im going back to the one that requires me to be responsible not just to myself.
Althought living alone abroad is rather inconvenient, as in, i've got to wash my own clothes, bedsheets, cook, clean, buy my own stuff.... but really.. i'm only responsible for myself, and to myself. I guess thats wat i like the most.
It kind of hurts to think that there are people i am not going to see again, probably, forever. And for the people who are closer, i dont noe man. Hopefully, we will in time, meet again.
Why am i not sleeping? becoz im feeling nostalgic from talking to mama lai just now. Also becoz i'm being highly entertained by my dearest fishie. =)
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